Saturday, February 26, 2011

Berlin (3 weeks late...)

So much for being a devoted blogger. I've wanted to blog several times in the past month, but little things kept getting in the way. Lemme break this down.

BERLIN!

Incredible. An amazing city. Siomha and I really bonded with the kids that came with us--Catie, Christina, and Pat. Traveling in small groups really made getting to know each other easier. When we arrived in Berlin, we somehow figured out what train we needed to grab in order to quickly get into the city. We arrived at the train station with about 8 minutes until our train left. Plenty of time, right? Oh but wait! We couldn't find our platform. We were platform 6, but the platform numbers seemed to skip from 1-3, to 7-9. Not helpful. After studying the train map for 15 minutes to try to figure out which train to take, we ended up just jumping on a train and hoping it got us there okay. Luckily, it did! After our first messy experience with the train, Pat and I mastered the train system and became the group's trusted navigators. We only made ONE mistake for the rest of the trip, and it was easily fixable.                                                                                                    

Sorry to brag.

We had a quick bite to eat at a cute little family-owned restaurant. Schnitzel was a bit weird, but the meatballs and sausages were great. So much for my diet! Then we rushed back to the hostel to get ready for the New Europe pubcrawl. It was a great night--met lots of new friends--a couple from England, a bunch of guys from Quebec, and some Argentinean guys with boundary issues. The Berlin "pub" scene is more like a "dark-smokey-artsy-lounge-with-funk-music" scene. We ended the night at a very hip, slightly stripper-filled night club. I have to say the highlight of the night was when the five of us ended up in a ridiculous cage, dancing to Barbra Streisand. We got a lot of questions about Pat from all the guys we met--"Is that guy gay?" "Is that guy your boyfriend?" "Why is that guy surrounded by four girls?" Some of our answers: "He's the son of an oil baron," "He's related to Hugh Hefner," or simply "We're all fighting over him." To end the night, we had several delicious brats from the vendor outside the train station on the way home.

Pub Crawl!
We started the morning out right with more delicious brats. We decided that there's no point in spending money on meals in restaurants...the street vendor brats were better than anything we could get in a fancy restaurant. Then we hurried to the famous Brandenburg Tor for a 3 hour New Europe tour of Berlin.

Brandenburg Tor
Berlin has such a fascinating history--I wish I could remember it all and spill it out into this blog.
Memorial to the Murdered Jews of Europe


But most of what I remember are the feelings, the images--staring at the famous Reichstag that Hitler burned down to seize power; seeing the layout of the Berlin wall zigzagging across the roads and sidewalks of a brand new, united Berlin; seeing the Memorial to the Murdered Jews of Europe; passing Checkpoint Charlie; comparing Nazi propaganda murals of Berlin in the 50s to the chilling photographs of the 1953 uprising; standing on top of Hiter's bunker, right next to a trashcan placed rather ironcially over the permanently sealed entrance...

I had a tight, sick feeling in the pit of my stomach for the entire tour. A chilling, heavy atmosphere pervaded rainy Berlin--it was the right kind of weather for such a powerful tour!

Gendarmenmarkt
That isn't to say Berlin doesn't have it's beautiful areas. It certainly does! Gendarmenmarkt is one of the most beautiful squares I've ever seen--in the summer, they have a huge classical music festival. I wish I could go back and see the city in the sunshine!
Berlin Cathedral
One of my favorite buildings was the Cathedral--I took SO many pictures of it. Lots of architects think it's a horrible building--apparently it's a
 poor mishmash of different styles through the centuries. But I really don't care! It's gorgeous! Inside and out!

The famous Berlin greenman! (Ampelmannchen--funny little crosswalk guy created for kids by a "traffic psychologist")
We ended the night at a funky little hookah bar near our hostel--recommended by our extremely indie tour guide Zabi. Pat unfortunately left the next morning--he had to get back for the super bowl (whatever!). The girls and I went to Sachsenhausen, one of the first ever concentration camps, just outside of Berlin.

Sachsenhausen was also one of the original test grounds for the gas chambers--the outline of the shower room still exists. The camp's triangular shape was actually used as a "model" for all future concentration camps, and was a training ground for SS officers. The Nazis took great care in recruiting men with very very low IQs and with strong psychopathic tendencies to train to become SS officers--Hitler definitely knew what he was doing. He knew only ignorant, cruel men would be able to support his cause.

If we thought Berlin was depressing, we were in for a real treat at Sachsenhausen. The day was dark, windy, damp, and cold--very fitting for what we were about to see. We approached Guard Tower "A"--the same guard tower that the prisoners would have approached. Except this time, the time on the guard tower was wrong--it was set to 11:08--the exact minute soviet guards liberated the camp in 1945. We stood in the courtyard where the criminals, gypsies, communists, homosexuals, and jews were stripped down, robbed, shaved, beaten, cleaned, and dressed in jumpsuits with a number. We walked through the same gate they all walked through--on the gate were the words "arbeit macht frei," meaning "Work brings freedom"....yeah. right.



I've never really appreciated the horrors of the concentration camps...I feel like it's something you have to see to believe. And even now, after seeing it, I can't fully believe it. It is so shocking. The guards played psychological mind games on the prisoners by throwing their hats into a "neutral" zone, then ordering them to fetch it. If a prisoner was caught in a neutral zone, the guards were to shoot them, since it was assumed that they were either trying to escape or attempt suicide, and neither were allowed. So, naturally, the prisoner would not go to the neutral zone. But, then again, if they did not go fetch their hat, they would be disobeying a direct order, and would therefore be tortured or killed.



Sick. Disgusting.

The prisoners got 45 minutes to eat breakfast, wash themselves, and make it outside for daily roll call. This proved difficult. At times, there were up to 300 men in cabins built for 60. There were not enough toilets for all the men to go to the bathroom in 45 minutes, and they would be shot if they went to the bathroom on the floor. Three men were drowned by the S.S. guards in the wash basin for trying to rinse their dirty feet. Essentially, the S.S. guards used torture in any way they could, even in simple morning routines. Then, when the men reached roll call, attendance would last at least 2 hours--the men were forced to stand outside in the bitter Berlin winters with only their cotton jumpsuits to keep them warm. One roll call lasted 14 hours--dozens dropped dead of hypothermia. Then when all that was done, they were in for a day of hard labor, interspersed with random torture. The political prisoners were held in a top security building surrounded by a high brick wall, in which they were tortured daily and eventually killed--apparently that was the most dreaded place in Sachsenhausen. The ordinary prisoners never got to see what went on behind that mysterious wall--they only heard their screams.
photograph of roll call
Finally, we checked out station Z. I bet you can all guess what happened there. The execution site began as a simple firing squad, but the all the men waiting in line to be shot got a little hysterical (shocker..) and were difficult to control as they were being dragged to their death. Plus, the S.S. officers dealing with the desperate prisoners, begging for their lives, were experiencing "psychological trauma." We wouldn't want them to feel bad about killing people, now would we? So Hitler and his buddies figured there had to be a more efficient, and less "traumatic" way to kill people. Cool.

They set up a complex building that looked quite a bit like an ordinary doctor's office from the outside. The prisoners would walk into a pleasant waiting room that had loud music playing, and would be asked to sit down. Then, one at a time, they would be escorted to the next room, where they would go through a routine medical examination. First, the "doctor" would check out their teeth--if they had any gold fillings, the "doctor" would draw a little cross on their arm. Then, he would take their height. He lined up the prisoner against one of those old fashioned measuring sticks that you adjust from the top. When he took the prisoner's height, a little hole opened up in the back of the height gauge. In the room directly behind the height gaugue, was an S.S. officer pointing a gun directly into the little hole in the wall. He would shoot the prisoner in the neck, the prisoner would be killed immediately and moved to the next room, and the S.S. officer would never have to see his victim's face. Then the next prisoner would enter, unsuspecting (the loud music covered up the sound of the gun shot), and the whole process would begin again. The prisoner would then get his gold fillings removed (waste not!) and put into the ovens.

 A perfect system, really.

the device they used to take their "heights" 

After four emotionally exhausting hours, we ended our tour of Sachsenhausen. I would absolutely recommend that everyone visit a concentration camp if you can. Definitely not the most enjoyable experience in the world, but it's something everyone should see.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

A very busy 2 weeks....

Back in Ireland, and more stressed than ever. Why? Well, all hell broke loose when I found out I had failed to turn in a 2,500 word essay worth 38% of my grade for my Cognitive and Neuroscience Approach to Addiction Class.  Apparently all the emails regarding it went either to my spam folder, or I didn't read them carefully, or I missed the slides because I wasn't there that day, blah blah blah. The point is, go to class, kids. Go to class. I missed 2 classes out of the 12, and those must have been the magic days when my professor told us A) we had a huge essay to do! B) what those essays were supposed to be on!

Anyway. The essay was due December 17th. I found out about it January 21st (and proceeded to flip out). It is now due February 11th, because my professor is a lovely man. How much of my essay have I written? Zilch. I'm terribly intimidated by the essay, and can't seem to write two words down on paper. AND I'm going to Berlin this weekend. Oops.

Okay, enough whining. Quick (kind of) description of what's been happening for these last 2 weeks.

This new crowd is much more willing to come downtown.  Going to Dicey's has become a weekly Tuesday night adventure (except this Tuesday when I was lame and stayed in to write this paper...and this blog).

Last Friday Mike Rodio finally dragged me and Siomha to the PAV.  The PAV is the student bar on Trinity's campus. I'm sure it's a ton of fun if you know a million people that go there, but honestly I just feel a bit left out there.  Crowds and crowds of people that all seem to know each other. In bars, it's a bit more anonymous, with groups of people at their own tables. Mike insisted that he meets people at the PAV, but...I don't buy it. Sorry Rodio. The only way I meet people is through small classes or plays. Or drunk guys at bars. But at the PAV, it's like one giant Trinity party that the study abroad kids weren't invited to. A couple UCD kids wanted to go for a drink, so I encouraged us to leave the PAV, and we went to the Long Stone (recommended by Eimear). I liked it a lot...had a cozy atmosphere, but it was crowded and had party music on.

On Saturday, the Trinity kids took about 10 UCD kids to Howth, a little fishing village about 25 minutes away. After some delicious fish and chips, we took a very muddy and adventurous walk on a hiking path in the cliffs outside of the town.  Really beautiful views.  I fell in love with Ireland all over again. The blog server isn't letting me post pictures up here, but you can see pictures of howth here. When I got back Saturday night, I headed to Rathmines to go to my friend Julia's surprise party.  I met Julia, an American grad student, and Elizabeth, and English grad student, through Dr. Horrible. And I'm so glad that I did! I had a great night at her party. I was very late and missed the big SURPRISE! moment, but I still had a great time. I loved all of their friends...I think it's partially because they were all a bit older. The age group was around 23-26, and I didn't feel out of place at all. Everyone was relaxed and inclusive and friendly. It was actually refreshing...so many undergrad parties just seem like a more drunken extension of the cliquey high school mentality, but I enjoyed this one a lot more. At the end of the night, I caught the Luas back with a wonderful American married couple that decided to settled down in the Temple Bar after they both finished grad school at Trinity. I love getting to know the new UCD kids, but I'm going to try to meet new people like this more often.

That being said, we still wanted to feel like we were a part of the new UCD group. So, we had about 10 kids over for a Mexican night on Sunday. I made some yummy guac and margaritas, and Siomha made her famous enchiladas. My friend from highschool, Rachel Sussman, just got into town the day before, and I roped her into coming to Trinity to eat dinner with me and say hello. She looked impossibly stylish and beautiful and I had a wonderful time chatting with her.

We ended the night at a sports bar to watch the Bears game. All the UCD kids from the Chicago area were there, and they became more and more depressed as the night went on. I had to kind of pretend I was sad... until I got into the bar, I did not know who the Bears were. I tried to keep that quiet....

Wednesday evening the O'Connell house staff took all the Trinity kids out to dinner.  I LOVED the place we went to--Hugo's on the corner of Merrion Square and St. Steven's Green. It was a lovely little restaurant with a huge wine bar, little twinkle lights, lace curtains, and tiffany-blue wallpaper.  I loved catching up with the O'Connell house. I also met a new member, Lisa, from Canada. She's really one of the oldest members, but she was on maternity leave last semester so I never met her. She's delightful! She fell in love with an Irishman, moved here, and married him. So romantic. She kept quizzing me about Kstein, and hinting that I need to meet an Irish guy instead. I told her that though her Irishman fairy tale was appealing, I'm going to stick with Kevin....

The food at Hugo's was DELICIOUS. Since the O'Connell house was paying, I indulged in a little creme brulee.. it was a very good life choice. I wish I'd brought my mom there when she was visiting!  After dinner, Siomha and I went to UCD for a second dinner! All of the UCD kids were having a big pasta dinner to get to know everyone. One of the main reasons I went was to sample Katie Kelliher's famous banoffee pie. I was pretty stuffed when I got home that night....

Friday morning, my friend Dithu told me that one of my friends from high school, Kyle Holton, died in a car accident. It shook me more than I thought it would. I haven't talked to Kyle in about 2 years, but he was still a big part of my life in some way. Most of my experiences with him were from forensics Freshman and Sophomore year....he was such a fun, spirited person, and a really great coach.  Some of my close friends are still so tight with Kyle, and I can't imagine what this must have been like for them.  I called my mom, shannon, and a bunch of other high school friends to talk about it. Then I promptly spent an hour and a half watching Rocky Horror the multiple (Kyle's pride and joy) and skyping with Dithu. Didn't get much homework done, but it was actually great getting to talk to people from high school about everything. I felt a bit like I was in the Big Chill.

That night, one of the UCD girls that I LOVE, Mary Coyne, cooked dinner for the trinity kids and a few UCD-ers. Delicious Ratatouille and garlic bread. After the meal, we headed to the porter house to see the famous Woodsey...all the UCD kids are now big fans. I'm following in your footsteps, Norah.

Saturday the O'Connell house planned a tour for us at the National Gallery.  There was a special exhibition of J.M.W. Turner's watercolors, and we had a tour-guide take us through the Yeats exhibit and the famous Carravagio. After a quick dinner at home, I met up with Adriana, Alice, and Josh, some of the UCD kids, and went to a trad session at Gogarty's in temple bar. It was great! I'm going to try to go to more trad sessions and see more live music while I'm here. I haven't even been to O'Donaghue's since I've been back! It's inexcusable. After the trad sesh, we went to UCD for a "dorm party"...I guess people are already feeling nostalgic for the Notre Dame way of life.

I finally started to work work work really hard on my Psych essay on Sunday.... unfortunately I didn't make much progress. This essay may be the death of me. After more essay-agony on Monday, I went to a talk at 6pm with Rupert Everett!!!  He is just as handsome and charming in real life as he seems in the movies.  And his accent is BEAUTIFUL.  I loved hearing about his past.  From dropping out of high school, to feeling dissatisfied with the techniques and rules in acting school, to being in his first Oscar Wilde production, to his first movie, to his upcoming directing/writing career...he seemed so down to earth about it. Even though the interviewer was asking him some pretty personal questions (i.e.--coming out in Hollywood, his family life, his heritage in the royal family), he never seemed too taken aback and he spoke about everything with such eloquence.

I'm a little bit in love... unfortunately he's gay, otherwise we would TOTALLY be together.

After the talk, I had drinks with rachel and her friend Solvieg at Doyle's. Afterwards, I headed to the place where Rachel goes to school, Griffith College, to meet all her theatre friends. I had SO much fun....it was refreshing to hang out with outgoing, quirky theatre folk again.  The only downside was I had to take a cab home...I didn't want to walk alone in at midnight in relatively deserted streets.

The past few days have been kind of crazy--lots of class, lots of homework...I'm trying to make some progress in this overwhelming paper so I can have a good time in Berlin this weekend! Yes, you heard right...I'm going to Berlin! So exciting.

I won't blog again for another week (aka, until after this paper is done), but I PROMISE next week's blog will be better than this one.

Slainte,
Clare Mairead

P.S. Here are some more pictures of Dublin Round 2!